Thursday, October 22, 2009

Holding Yourself Accountable

I was running through Hudson Mills park yesterday evening and had some thoughts I'd like to share. 

The leaves are at the peak of their autumn color and the smell in the air was amazing. As I was running around the park I began to think about photography and running simultaneously. I have been slacking a wee bit when it comes to my running routine. In the past few weeks I've been making it out three, two, and one week, I only made it out once. This inconsistency has led me to some moments of personal bashing and self-doubt. 

Why have I been letting myself down? I've always been very motivated and running is an important part my life. 
My friend shared an experience recently about holding herself accountable. She said she would do her workout at the gym if she had to report back to her physical therapist, but if not, she slacked. I was thinking about this last night while running in relationship to my own slacking. At this present moment, the only one holding me accountable for running is me. Isn't that the person that matters? Why is it that I'll let myself down but  do anything in my power to avoid letting a friend, family member, or in the past, a running coach, down? 
The light was brilliant last night. It illuminated the trees and darkened the shadows in a way that made the forest glow. Since I didn't have my camera, I took in a few deep breaths and tried to soak in the moment. All of my senses were completely satisfied and in that moment I made a promise to myself. I promised to stop making plans for tomorrow and start doing today. 

This has been a not-so-subtle inspirational moment.

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